Thoughts. [They Plague Me Constantly]

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Thoughts. [They Plague Me Constantly]




Maybe, in life, no matter how hard you try, you're destined to fail.
From the very beginning, the universe or something is just against you.
Or you take a wrong turn, and can't find your way back.
And you don't notice at first. Then one day you're suddenly left thinking, How did I get here? How did everything get so messed up?
And you try to pinpoint exactly when it happened, what went wrong, but you can't. And for the rest of your miserable life it haunts you.

Maybe, there's sometimes nothing you can do anymore. If you tried a thousand times and still, you fail. But you're still left with that little sliver of hope, tiny, inside you.
And eventually, as always, you'll be let down. And your hopes are crushed, and you feel empty again. You feel alone, and like nothing really matters.
But it does. It matters more than you'd ever admit.

There's some things you can never quite get used to.
You can push it to the back of your mind, not think about it.
But it's always there. And in the darkest of times, it comes to the forefront, devastating you.

You find something that makes you happy, you fuck up and lose it.
With one statement, or even one word, realizations are made. And suddenly, you see the world and the situation for what it really is.
How could I be so oblivious?

And by then, you can't go back.
In your heart, you knew all along, but you couldn't consciously acknowledge it.
But maybe, just maybe, you can try one more time to fix things.
And to start over. Maybe you'll fail. Maybe there's nothing you can do.
Maybe there's no point.

Maybe there is.

Here's to lowering caskets of old friends,
Choice and consequence.
We'll birth a new day,
With the death of an old and,
Start over, Start over.
Here's to burying hatchets in those
Who you'd never call your friend.
We'll birth a new day with the death of an old, and..
Start over. Start over.




Btw, I don't really care what any of you have to say about this blog.
This isn't for you. This is for me, to get my emotions out a bit.
But I figure it'll entertain you for a good two minutes.
So keep your rude comments and/or opinions to yourself.

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Post on Thu Dec 03, 2009 10:27 am by Yanjin

Wow Keila, that's really deep :/

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Post on Thu Dec 03, 2009 1:21 pm by xtobelovedx

Yeah, I can be like that.
Usually when depressed.
*sighs*

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Post on Thu Dec 03, 2009 2:13 pm by Yanjin

Ah, I know the pattern all too well.
You'll be fine.
At least you have some hope left, Keila Smile <3

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Post on Thu Dec 03, 2009 8:23 pm by xtobelovedx

What hope?

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Post on Fri Dec 04, 2009 11:21 am by Yanjin

"But you're still left with that little sliver of hope, tiny, inside you."

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Post on Fri Dec 04, 2009 1:13 pm by xtobelovedx

Ah.
Too tiny to think about for certain situations.

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Post on Fri Dec 04, 2009 3:07 pm by Yanjin

Smile Nah, it's still hope

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Post on Fri Dec 04, 2009 3:10 pm by xtobelovedx

Suppose so.

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Post on Fri Dec 04, 2009 4:45 pm by Yanjin

Smile Just be happy, for me?

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Post on Fri Dec 04, 2009 6:24 pm by xtobelovedx

I'll try.

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Post on Fri Dec 04, 2009 6:45 pm by Yanjin

That's all I ask Wifey Smile
I love you

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Post on Fri Dec 04, 2009 6:48 pm by xtobelovedx

No it isn't. >_>
I love you too. <3

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Post on Fri Dec 04, 2009 6:49 pm by Yanjin

Oh shhh Smile

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Post on Fri Dec 04, 2009 6:50 pm by xtobelovedx

Never! D:

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Post on Fri Dec 04, 2009 7:05 pm by Yanjin

Smile Wouldn't have it any other way!

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Post on Fri Dec 04, 2009 7:08 pm by xtobelovedx

Stop sending me mixed signals! D:

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Post on Sun Dec 06, 2009 2:20 pm by Yanjin

They're not mixxxxxxxed Smile

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Post on Sun Dec 06, 2009 5:01 pm by xtobelovedx

They are. Sad

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Post on Sun Dec 06, 2009 6:48 pm by Yanjin

Smile I just love you
there, one signal.

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Post on Sun Dec 06, 2009 6:50 pm by xtobelovedx

Thanks. I love you too.

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