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Just a few of my writings, in an attempt to get this section back up and running, or whatever
I haven't written in a long time, but I'm sure I'll start once inspiration hits. Bold=Titles.
I don't remember which Nathan said was his favorite or I'd post that. Very few people have seen these. ._.

Imploding

How I wish I could just brush off these feelings, like a leaf in the wind, blowing away before I even realize it was there. But to ignore them only truly prolongs what I know is inevitable. So in the end, the question is, which hurts...

A bit of a cross between a rant and...something else. Not sure what to call it but I haven't posted something here in a long time so I figured I would. I took out some parts of it for reasons that I won't state.

It's moments like these when I wonder, what would happen if...?

What would happen if I told you? If I spoke the words I've been hiding inside, even from myself, for so long? What will happen when I don't? It is inevitable that I should hold back these words I so long to tell you.

Dear stupid person..

I lived with the motto of my mother.. I'm not better than anybody.. But there is nobody in this world better than me!

People think about this Motto, It can help you a lot if you need it..

Think about it and get to know that every person in this world has the right to be there..
I have my rights, you have your rights.. We all have our rights..

So why stupid person? Why are you so mean? Can't you do normal to someone? Why not?
Your not better than that person and you don't have to be scared this person is better than you!

This is basically about the day I had yesterday. Most of it was AMAZING.
IT WAS LIKE MY FAVOURITE DAY OF 2010 SO FAR XD XD
Some of it was crap but meh.
This will probably only make sense to me, but since I can't say stuff in the diary part, I'll say it on here xD

Yesterday was AWESOME.
Like I hadn't seen anyone but family and a revision book for 2 weeks >_________<
So seeing friends was fun.
I went home during lunch, had cold pasta. And whilst talking to my australian friend Chris on facebook, I promptly choked on my homemade cookies with laughter as he...

So basically.
Ebuddy and facebook is blocked =[

&& I HAVEN'T BEEN ON THIS SINCE SCHOOL ENDED!! 0_0

I miss everyone.
Speaking of which, I'm looking through a convo where I'm massively failing. Back in the day when me and Perry were friends D:

It's one of the funniest convos I've seen and I'm almost crying with laughter.

The multi is where I'm failing coz I don't recognise Kay in the convo, all the girls are talking about boob sizes in the presence of guys, and random shit in general.

I love you guys to death. <3
[and...

Well I haven't made a blog on here in a while so I might as well write a short bit out of boredom.

I've been writing a lot lately...
Poems, I mean, not just random rants like I usually do [although they are increasing as well.]

I'm not sure how to feel about it cuz I actually don't think my poems are shit.
They are actually okay. ._. I'd show them to someone but I know I'd just be disappointed, because they wouldn't understand what I was trying to say through them.
And it's the deepest look into my true feelings anyone will ever get. And I just really don't...

Here's one you might want to pay attention to. Prolly the closest I'll ever get to putting my feelings out there. And you can say whatever you want. Unless you've lived every day in my life, you have no idea what it's like living in this house. So keep your judgments to yourselves. I'm trying to talk about my feelings and actually open up for once. Don't like it? I don't really care.

The dictionary defines home as a house, apartment, or other shelter that is the usual residence of a person, family, or household. Family is defined as any group of persons closely related by blood.

Because I wasn't already filled with enough.
[Angry at myself, my friends, my family, and pretty much anyone who fucking breathes.]
These facades are growing old.
For a second, I really believed.
How stupid of me. I should have known.
And how stupid I feel for wanting to freaking cry over it.
Maybe because I got my hopes up, just for a second.
And then crash, as usual.
My life is pathetic. And me? I am SO very pathetic.

I want to scream until someone finally hears. Finally listens.

No one cares. No one listens.
Screaming...

I wrote a whole rant. And I couldn't post it.
Once again, I can't tell my feelings.
I was so close to just telling someone.
Telling...well, anyone who looked. =/

Once again, I'm left to keep everything inside until I'm about to break.
I've been about to break for a long time.
I wonder when I really will. Completely lose it.

Everyone notices, no one cares.

I need something else.
Would someone please just give me,
Hit me, knock me out,
And let me go back to sleep.
I can laugh all I want.
Inside I still am...

Yeah I haven't.
So this is my random rant on life.

My workload is so muchhhhh. But once thursday is over, I HAVE revision to do for mock, revision in general and TWO PSYCHOLOGY ESSAYS TO DO!

Please kill me now >__<<

Anyway yeah. Drama almost over.

I think I will never convince my best friend that I actually like him [friendship sense]
Jonny and I made up because I don't like losing friends no matter how much they use me thank you very much.
The ex is a different story, he's an ass.

Uhhhh yeah! And I hate another person...

There’s so many places I could take this post.

Should I mention American kids with their junk food and television, should I mention Great Britain’s ‘Chav’ culture where it’s socially acceptable to fuck or stab anything that moves?

Or, I could just give an all-encompassing overview of the shit-storm that is youth.

Now, in this part of my rant I will mention the need to be ‘loved’.

This is a very touchy issue with most children in the modern day, some seem to believe love is something very easily achieved and dare...

I feel like that all the time.
Sometimes, people just LOOK at me coz I'm that quiet girl who's kind to everybody.
Am I just an easy target?
People love to take the piss out of me because I get easily offended when people pick on my looks and singing.

I'm just an ugly ragdoll, guys take an interest then throw me away into the bin.

And yes that's negative.
But I'm sick of always being positive for once.

I really can't stand myself.
D:

Maybe, in life, no matter how hard you try, you're destined to fail.
From the very beginning, the universe or something is just against you.
Or you take a wrong turn, and can't find your way back.
And you don't notice at first. Then one day you're suddenly left thinking, How did I get here? How did everything get so messed up?
And you try to pinpoint exactly when it happened, what went wrong, but you can't. And for the rest of your miserable life it haunts you.

Maybe, there's sometimes nothing you can do anymore. If you tried a thousand times and still, you...

So basically it was my birthday on friday and my birthday thing on saturday.
No joke - FOUR OTHER PEOPLE WERE THERE.
FOUR.
Tanya didn't come - idk why. Dara - her family went mental. Jasmine went mental on me and went home.
Jonny - his stupid gf didn't let him come.

Oh wellz. WE STILL HAD FOUR! XD

So basicallyyyy we went to hyde park. I'VE GOT A KON PLUSHIE! <3 Andddd a death note. And a purty 18th balloon :33

Anywayz. Then we went to oxford street and ate pizza. Gideon got owned majorly xDD He like tried to cut the pizza and then knocked...

And I'm not overly depressed....yet....
So I'll take that as a good sign.
We'll see how I feel a bit later. =|
<--- wtf is this?

Okay, I'll try to.
I love you hubby.
I like spamming though but ohwell.

And lol yes the title was rather awesome. :P

Just believe in me

Also, this blog title is win....Though, we should stop this, it's just spamming now

But he won't.

Three Days Grace is amazing.

or at least act like she does
but she wont </3

My head doesn't hurt
oh, and: Three Days Grace ftw.

That is all....

Retaliation blog ftw!

Or at least continue pretending he does.
But he won't.
</3

Also, my head hurts as always.
I wonder if it's my glasses. That's gonna suck if it is.

Dammit people! Just write a blog once in a while!

/blog

Well, here we are!

I've done too much today, haha.

Well, Forumwise I've done too much,
Firstly, I (for some reason) decided to go on AnimeAddicted's Wikipedia site, big mistake, I posted a thread about it but the incompleteness of it annoyed me somewhat, after that I tried making some new changes and they've changed the fucking system for making pages! I was so confused, so after a few seconds of rage I decided I didn't want to try anymore, though, I will and I hope the rest of you contribute to it too! (Yes, that's a thread, I shall neg-rep you till...

Sucks.
Today was good though.
The end.

Huge favor, completed.
I swear I almost typed favour. I'm losing my mind.